Even emptiness must be signed for
when it is addressed to you. How joyous
to share with a friend this gift –
the entrails of skinned oranges, shirts
irrevocably stained with slips of pulp,
houses left empty by couples grown old
and alone together. I cannot say enough
about what has been left behind. The past
blinds us, asking for adoration, a still
and ugly, timid and benevolent god.
We want destruction for mini-malls,
sick in their consumption. Are greeted
instead by dandelions pushing through
the pavement. Touch the creepers on
the unwashed walls, the moss living
on whatever rots the fence posts.
Sometimes we rush past the wreckage,
buy oranges, go home, dream of
new and glass-green things.
The holly fawns over the blue star.
The black glass isn’t in the window
anymore; awns left by the lift
press on maybe as much as breath
sticking itself in the river oats.
Lawns left by the mind, desert
of trim displacement, centuries
of a cultivated refusal to need.
Not just – no longer. Empiric
monocultures of thin, fake jade
carpet roll carried on shoulders.
Shrugging trucks dumping N.
Eutrophs scabbing the water.
Water collapsing the wind.
Grapes will wind into elms;
selves growing thicker, then
thinner skins.
Jacob J. Billingsley is a Pushcart-nominated poet from Missouri. More of his writing can be found in The Shore, ANMLY, Viridian Door, and in the recent anthology, Alocasia: 99 queer writers on plants and nature. His poem, The Felled, was featured by VerseDaily in May 2025. You can find him on Bluesky or Instagram.