A puff of cold wakes her. Strangers open and close freezer doors to find the things they’ll bring back to their houses where they’ll open and close their own freezer doors. She is on the ground with back to glass. Curled up like a frozen samosa fallen from its carton, exiled from some dumpling family of perfect corners. Waking is a kind of melting. She nods to shoppers like they have solidarity. The absurdity of commerce unites them, or so she thinks. She reaches for her clavicle to adjust the
braided chain made of finest silver from the North of Spain a locket that bears the name of the man that
as she realizes there’s no necklace. Instead, she hears the grocery store playlist and does her best to understand. Slowly she unfolds her edges to stand. The third Blue Moon at Applebee’s is what did her in. She makes a pledge: Never wander the aisles of Kroger drunk. Especially when you miss your childhood home, your mother who clapped when you tap danced on linoleum. Your father before dementia closed the door behind his eyes. Your brothers before they met their busy wives. She considers asking someone to put her in their cart. No one hears her puff, Take me home.
In 2006, the International Astronomical Union downgraded Pluto to a dwarf planet.
My 7-year-old son wears his Pluto t-shirt on free-dress days. A show of solidarity, tiny boy planet himself. Some nights he prays bring Pluto back during our bedtime routine. I followed a Fans of Pluto Facebook page, but it’s some rock band from the UK. One of their bonus tracks is titled “Blue Dog Blues” (5.22) – just about the length of time it takes third graders to wiggle back to class after the bell & turn to page 72 in the seaboard galaxy of textbook matter. Their eyes find Pluto described as a small, cold rocky object. When I was 19, I worked at the housing office to help with tuition. My boss – the Director of Student Housing – had a funny routine for me: Come into my office, turn yourself around. His eyes would orbit my legs, waist, & breasts. I learned to feel cold, small. The Western clock tower on campus housed 14 bells weighing up to 2,000 pounds each. Its chimes signaled time for class. Feeling dwarfed, I’d open my Norton’s Anthology to Chaucer’s Wife of Bath and begin to understand what men fear most.
Candice Kelsey is a is a poet, educator, and activist currently living in Augusta, Georgia. She serves as a creative writing mentor with PEN America’s Prison & Justice Writing Program; her work appears in Grub Street, Poet Lore, Lumiere Review, Hawai’i Pacific Review, and Poetry South, among other journals. Recently, Candice was chosen as a finalist in Iowa Review’s Poetry Contest and Cutthroat’s Joy Harjo Poetry Prize. Find her on Twitter @candicekelsey1 and at candicemkelseypoet.com.